Wasted Autumn

 I blinked 

And she left my side

The way she seems to do every year

The icy chill is in the air now

Her cool overwhelmed

By the marching of time

Autumn my dearest,

You leave me so quickly

The dying leaves

Fall to wipe the smile from my face

I am melancholy

Mourning before it's over

Grieving before she's gone

Just because I know she will

Some people say November is still her

Some people say it's something new

It's the time I say goodbye

The way you don't really want to see them before they go

Because the memory of the body

Hurts more than the memory of the soul

To see them right before they go

Hurts more than remembering the times before

Don't watch me as I die

Keep your head turned

Don't feel my sunken cheeks

Don't touch my frozen face

Autumn, darling

will I see you again soon?

I already know the answer

Still, I ask the question

To hear her voice, the wind

Have I wasted it

Because I knew it would end

Or because I thought it wouldn't?