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 I don't know what to write

I don't know what I want to say,

What I want you to hear


The cat on my lap is warm

Blood runs through her

I hear her purrs

I don't feel them


I pick at my back, and it bleeds

Tiny specks soak my top

Red turns brown over time


I watched video after video today

Got maybe two tasks done

Saw hundreds of women more beautiful than I

Through a brick in my hand


I didn't shower today

Didn't wash my hair

My friend hasn't I haven't spoken to my friend in a month


I listen to the violin

I start to read a book

I shake off the cobwebs


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